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I don’t really feel like writing today but I am going to try. I am a little focused on what it is to exist right now and more specifically, my own existence and my relationship with society. I know I trash talk work culture a lot and I want to clarify something, I do value getting things done, I am not apposed to using my body as a tool to do things, I am however apposed to feeling like that’s my only purpose and being treated like that’s my only purpose. I believe most people do want to do things, it’s just that our society is set up so backwards that it often hinders motivation.

I really hate how much of what life asks of me often makes me feel lethargic, it sucks. Often times I hate myself when working and it takes every ounce of energy that I have to get myself to even stand up. What’s odd is that it’s not always like this, it’s usually when I feel like a slave rather than a person; it’s often when I feel like I am not given a choice. When I am given a choice and not forced to do things by other people, I usually have no problem working and even do better work. I’m tired of a society that treats workers as machinery and I am tired of society calling people lazy who don’t want to work. This system does not value people.

Also, mental health exists and not everyone endures the same life so please, do not ever say this garbage ” well, I did it, so can you.” I am going to condemn anyone the next time I play a guitar solo that they can’t if they say that. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses, and this applies to things many people take for granted within themselves, like the ability to decide you want to do something and then the ability to just do it. That is genuinely extremely hard for some people and society at large needs to understand this. Anyways, that’s this week. Working on myself and just tired so really I am glad I could write at all.